Last week’s post, What Does it Really Mean to Trust God, came at a perfect time for me. Tomorrow I send my twin boys off to their first day of high school. Four more years before they strike out on their own, to see what the world and our God holds in store for them. The ticking of the clock is deafening. And so I wrote this prayer to help me remember what I have always known.
The day draws nearer
when my children will fly out into the world.
To discover, to fall, to grow, to cry
To choose, to lose their way, to find it again.
Fear grips my heart with icy fingers
What if…they choose wrong?
What if…they fall hard?
What if…they do not find their way?
I want to hold them back,
gripping them with my own icy fingers
Hands that used to let go all the time
Taking first steps, riding a bike, getting on the school bus
Why is it so hard this time?
Have I done enough?
Have I prepared them…enough?
Have I taught them…enough?
Will I ever be ready…enough?
I sigh a little
And cry a little
And pray a lot.
And then one thought echoes in my frightened, restless mind.
“Do not be afraid.”
And I remember
What I have always known.
They are in YOUR hands
And that is enough.